I'm on holiday in Bali, because I wanted to go away, come back and start anew. Today is my last day here, but I am feeling blue. I'm trying to enjoy it but this stupid pain caused by stiffness in my upper back is making me feel down. This flare up is still affecting my ribs, my back and now my neck. I'm frustrated! Even sitting myself down onto the deck chair riddles me with pain.
And my frustration all culminated with incompetent staff at the Grand Hyatt. Honestly, I expect more here. I go to the pool bar to order a coffee. I wasn't sure if they have it so I asked the waiter "do you have iced coffee?". He doesn't seem sure, so he goes around asking a few of his colleagues. I hear him repeat the word "ice coffee" a few times. After which, he turns around and starts instructing some other waiters to pack up the fridges.etc. I waited...waited...waited... And he continues to ignore me standing there. I look at him, half expecting him to notify me of whether they have iced coffee or not. He doesn't.
Finally, I ask "so do you have iced coffee or not?". "Oh yes ma'am, we make it at the restaurant, not here.". I felt like killing someone ... "So when were you planning to tell me that?". "Oh, we are already preparing it!".
What? They took my question for an order? And they didn't ask how I wanted it... "Oh?", I said, "how are you making it?".
"Black with sugar.".
"Really? In that case, I don't want it."
"Oh so how do you want it ma'am?"
....so now you ask me. I was about to blow up. I contained myself ... I don't want to engage with them anymore. I don't want the coffee anymore.
But that episode got me all riled up. I don't think I usually get so angry at these little cock ups. But I'm angry and close to tears. I just couldn't believe how a 5-star international hotel can have such screwed up service.
As I came back to my deck chair and eased myself back down painfully, I finally realize the source of my frustration is not the wait staff. It's this intolerable pain that Just. Won't. Go. Away.
I just want to feel normal again.
Without the stupid pills.
Be able to take a long, deep breath.
Not trip over and then feel jarring pain through my spine.
Be able to turn around and see behind me without having to swivel my entire body around.
Don't even talk about running. Or jumping.
But for now... I'm taking the pill. I can't deal with it.
