I checked up the dictionary on the meaning of chronic, because although I keep encountering this word as I try to educate myself on my condition, I don't think it really hit me on how long I should expect to experience this pain. I was hopeful that my flare ups are occasional and go away in time. I guess CHRONIC means I was wrong.
I had wanted this post to be about my 12 day trip to Nepal, where I did 5 days of trekking on the Annapurna trail. And how I managed it with my condition. I can simply cut that short now just by saying I took 90mg of Acorxia everyday that I was in Nepal. Yes, I pumped my body full of drugs just to achieve an enjoyable holiday. It was completely worth it, to see the beautiful mountain ranges and flowing rivers. But somehow, i feel that the drugs costed me more than it helped me.
When I came back home, I stopped Arcoxia completely. Unfortunately, I fell sick also, complete with fever, sore throat, flu. I'm not sure if it was the stoppage of Arcoxia or the infection, but the flare up that happened that weekend was completely unbearable.
It's been almost 3 weeks since then, some days are better than others. I had been getting up earlier in the mornings because I get awoken by my pain, but I was okay with it, because I was getting up at 6am. On the bright side, that just gave me more time to get ready for the day! However, last night I was awoken at 3.15am and had such difficulty getting back to sleep because of the pain in every part of my back and neck. Finally, after a long, hot shower, my pain eased a little and I was able to sleep again.
Honestly, this is a constant battle. I don't think I fully understood the meaning of CHRONIC till now. I just pray this understanding helps manage my expectations and my condition better.
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